Stumped.

This post may sound quite ridiculous to some. To me, I am simply stumped about my current situation.

Today at work, my new employer handed me the forms for group benefits. I cheerfully filled out the paperwork, and counted out the days until I was able to make a dentist appointment. (I have not gone in over a year, and I am one of those girls that gets her teeth cleaned 3-4 times per year). I'm itching to go, 8 more weeks.

Aaaaanyway... I got to the beneficiary part of the paperwork, and I froze. Sounds silly, but I did not know what to write in the line. Normally I would automatically write my husband's name in the required spot, but now I have my little dude is an equal contender. I know that if something were to happen to me that Andy would most definitely would ensure our son was well taken care of, (as any good parent would) but then I let my mind wander. What if, I were gone and then there was this hefty settlement, and some hoebag settled into my life riding the gravy train and there was nothing there for Hudson's school down the road one day?

One never knows...

I have thought long and hard about doing the 50/50 route so I could make sure he was taken care of now, and would have some socked away for later. But I see that Andy is capable of working and taking care of him, so what the hell. Should I just say fuck it, and leave it for Andy as I always would?

I am going to leave them until Monday to be filled out. Maybe some time to think on it would be best. Sleep on it and see if I am making a bigger issue of it than it needs to be.

What would you do?